Moving Forward

Hello.

I've heard said "Keep your friends close and enemies closer." My life over the last month has been a revelation of how I innately did this as I entered this world via my family of origin. I've also heard that we pick our families as a means to fulfill the spiritual contract we signed up for in this lifetime. If you have been reading this on-line diary, you know that I am committed to going all the way down the rabbit hole, so from that you can rightfully deduce I picked a really tough human family to be born into. Oh the lessons I have learned from them! I have watched my family of origin for 45 years, observed them, monitored the dynamics, tried to manipulate their agenda's and enlighten them to a higher purpose. I continually tried to shoehorn them into love and kindness. It didn't seem to work.

Two years ago I stopped. I let go. I let them go. I realized that each of us has free will, and it was not my place to "control" their choices, and honestly, we can only impact our own choices. I had been functioning within an illusion. The illusion of my ability to control others. As I let go, and walked forward on my journey, without my family of origin, life became less dramatic, and the air fresher. I could breathe for the first time, and the weight I had taken respoonsibility of vanished. I began living my life, and have never regretted the choice I made to let them go. Please understand, I love my family very much, and I love me. I had to let go into the river of MY life, and at this time I do it alone. The most loving thing I could do for my family of origin(foo) was to honor their God given birthright of free will, and live within my integrity.

Within the last month, my foo's shit has hit the proverbial fan.
I have always said that the truth is like water, it always finds it's way to the surface, and it has. It is difficult to watch people you love awaken into the life they have created, for often that life is riddled with puzzles, fear and anger from a very distant time. My heart aches for them as they see who they are, and try to run from taking responsibility for what they created. Yet, in the end of each stage, we must identify who we have been, choose what aspects of us we want to take forward, and say goodbye to the broken and debilitating facets of our lives that never really served our higher purpose. Then we start a new level of life, in a world with more integrity and humility, defined by our desires,beliefs and dreams. It is in this space where the liberation finds us.

So much of life and the earth is changing. Many of us have come to earth, been born on earth for just these times. We are the ballasts of change, as it rocks the vessels of everyone and everything around us. Every moment of every day we are creating the beauty of the next now, now, now. I see how empowered we are to create a world that works for everyone, all living things, alas I have come face to face with belief systems that challenge me. I believe that we are all facets of the One Source, God,The Light, The Truth. Yes, we each have a different perspective because we all have had such different journeys.

I imagine a ball of light as God at the center. Each of our journeys is an individual pin-point of light emanating from the center. That ray of pin-point light is our path, and we move along it. Sometimes we move closer to the center ball of all truth and wisdom. Sometimes we choose to move away from it, and the light is harder to see, and even sometimes we pick a spot and just remain there for a while. Our spiritual journeys are in constant flux, and we can move fluidly with them or resist their current. We all travel in different rhythms and with different reasons, and I feel it is through grace that we are given the opportunity to see oursleves and others with kind eyes. Yet here is where things get blurry for me.

Recently I attended a meeting for "spiritual encouragement" and I was sharing the lesson I was experiencing at the time. I was crying and pouring my heart out, and being quite sincere and vulnerable. I was sharing the fear I had about standing in the Power Of the Source, for when I had done so in the past I had been physically, mentally and emotionally punished by people, especially men. I wanted to recreate this thought paradigm and I was genuinely eager to facilitate this shift. The man on my left stated that my thought paradigm would not shift, that it was not possible, and that I was destined for failure. I waited for the moderator of the class to intervene, but he did not. I asked the group if they had witnessed what had just happened. Everyone sat mute, except the man on my left who laughed and said "See! I am glad I am giving you the opportunityto feel this on such a deep level. I am honored to be the one". I gave the man on my left the middle finger salute with both hands.

I was hurting, I was open, I was vulnerable and someone took the oppportunity to try and wield more pain into my woundedness. I explained how hurt I felt as a result of his comments. He laughed. I got up and left the group. I realize he was echoing the pain I was already feeling. If we are each experiencing our journey as lessons learned and gifts gleaned, then indeed must we ever apologize for hurting someone? This man has never apologized, and has relished in the thought of having contributed to my pain, which he even told me I was not experiencing. He had a spiritual epiphany last week, and woke up to his life. But he thinks that Grace supercedes all previous actions, and negates his karma. Is this true?

When I awoke in my life, I was tremendously humbled. I saw how I had created a thought paradigm at age 4, in order to survive, and how 41 years later I was still living it. I saw the immaturity of that thought system and how it undermined me as the light I am, and the vast amount of collateral damage it caused to those around me. I started making amends out of humility, and asking for forgiveness. The hardest person to get forgiveness from was myself, but it came.

Are we really to act any way we wish, and toss the consequences aside? Are we to be unkind even cruel to each other and to hell with the impact, because if we hurt or caused fear in someone else it is their issue to deal with, their lesson to learn, and we have actually done them a favor? This is so tough for me to wrap my head around. Isn't there an accountability we all have to each other, through the sacred contract of our words, and an accountability to our unity in Oneness through our deeds? I realize I cannot make someone apologize to me or anyone else. I also realize that we all walk a different path, but the closer we move into the light, don't we all see the same Truth? Isn't there one truth?And isn't that one truth laden with integrity,integratedness of being? What we do to the part impacts the whole, and we are responsible for the betterment of each other through the betterment of ourselves. Does grace absolve us from being responsible and kind in our actions with others?

If Indeed Grace negates our responsibility to each other, then is this the world we will create as the old one passes away? Creating a new earth system that works for everyone would require integrity and kindness to be a given. If only a few live by the code of integrity and kindness, then there will be little accountability, and then governments will arise again, since we humans as a majority can't seem to master kindergarten lessons 101.

The new earth I envision is a world beyond mental and physical borders. A world where our hearts and souls are safe to be honest and real. A world where malevolence is obsolete, and compassion is the holy currency we exchange. Where the One Truth, the One Unity In the One God resides and rules our individual expression, no governments are needed.....for we are led by the purest place of all....our heart.

The above questions are not rhetorical in nature. Responses would be greatly appreciated.

May seeds of truth bloom in your essence so that you can remain in Love's pure cascade,

Laurie

Todays Post is written by my friend Cheyenne. She has an excellent imagination. Enjoy the ride!-


Laurie



The lavender fairy

Fairys are always with you
and though somes days it feels like they are not with you they always are. This picture is a lavender fairy, she surrounds you with Lavender light from afar! She is the moon the sun and the stars. You can always see her in your dreams ,and thats were you can visit her when ever you want in your dreams. The lavender fairy will be right there waiting for you so get in touch with the Lavender fairy right away.
sweet dreams
xoxoxoxoxoxox,
Cheyenne L.

It's really happening...part 1/6

What an interesting night. I experienced a download of information that is deep, rich and beautiful. Some of the information I wrote above and below. I had several friend requests this morning on fb, as is every day of late, from spiritual people, lightworkers around the world. The shift is being felt globally, and we are finding our family, or tribe. I got some information for and about you and all of humanity.
First of all....They need, want, require you to Go Home. All indigenous earth tribes are to unite as one. It is time to focus on our commonality of living in harmony with this planet. You are the one you've been waiting for. You are to lead the Lakotah Nation into remembering it's truth, it's ways, it's nobility. Leaders from all Earth indigenous Tribes are being called forth. For all indigenous peoples everywhere carry the human instruction in their DNA. Native Tribes world wide have a connection to this planet that runs through their veins like sap through a multi-branched tree. Humanity is returning to The Native Way. You signed up for this lifetime, as one of this Global Tribe Leaders.

And it is there beside you, that I stand. A leader myself, and your partner. I am a leader of The Tribe of Light.

It is really happening......part 2/6

This information is not from me. It came through me, for you, me and my friend, and for the Tribe Of Light. It is time that our Earth Home takes on new Light, Native People everywhere are to Unite with the Tribe of Light people, as to deliver earth to her new self.
And indeed, we are one. The time is now. We are needed. We are to gather the tribes together, and establish a global community of support of indigenous people everywhere. We are the one's we've been waiting for.

It is really happening....part 3/6

It was of divine ordinance that tribes of humans were planted throughout the lands and waters of this planet. The Indigenous Tribes (IT for future reference and ease of sharing) are the initial link between our Earth's soul and humanity. Not only do you carry the human code in your DNA, but you hold the "on Earth as it is in Heaven" code as well. You, as a leader of this remembering, will be given the ability to read and interpret the code. It is back to the code for review and updated installation of information. An ability of going beyond your 'mental borders' as your Tribe Of Light (TOL) partner likes to say. This is where the future of the human-earth relationship lays. As Native Tribal people you innately carry within you the knowingness, you only need to practice simple tribal ritual to help you remember, and the memories saved by all ancestors will be shown to you, as a guide to show you the way. It is the way of creation, the way of community, the way of Truth....the way of Oneness.

Great Spirit, God, The infinite intelligent All.......these are the same energy. They are the Source of all that was offered, and the creativity that gave birth to all that is. Yet, what you have not done, is to learn the harmonious rhythm of working together with your home. The IT are your greatest resource. They know the way. Look to them, respect their ways, and you will collaborate with God and Earth, together writing the next volume of Earth History. Where do you start? At the beginning. And the time is now. These people were there. They will show you the place of initial choice, and you are to then move forward and outward more wisely. Do not focus on the endings, though grief will be experienced. Put your focus on the opportunity of Newness that lays before you, for that is where your Hopefulness resides. It is time to midwife forth your creativity, as you are the one's setting up the structure for the Next World. The New Earth. The Second Coming. As the American forefathers trusted divine planning through them and their wiriting, so must you as the foreparents of the Earth Tribe. The new Earth Tribe is a blend of Indigenous People and the Tribe of Light. From this union is born the Earth Alliance. This is the imagination of God brought to life.

It is really happening....part 4/6

This is part of the Hopi prophecy. 'And the Ocean's will turn black.' It's all changing right before our very eyes. It is the time of unraveling, revealing, and truth emerging, into a world that chooses to resist it far too often. The human-earth contract is up. Negotiations have started.
What Do You Want?

It is really happening....part 5/6

I gladly accept your friendship, and ask you with most earnestness,
what is going on here? 3 weeks ago a major shift happened for me. I have lived with depression my entire life, and 3 weeks ago I woke up and the depression was GONE, my food desires changed to whole foods, I need less sleep, I am even tempered, and my 4-legged friends have been communicating loudly with me. I will understand this, but it sure would be nice to know that me, my daughter and my roommate are not the only one's going through it.
Are you all experiencing these divine downloads and great shifts as well? Perhaps the better way to ask this, is: Are you being given CLEAR instruction?

It is really happening....part 6/6

This is quite interesting and most amazing. All the lightworkers, wayshowers, ligthwielders, shamans, medicine people, star people are coming together. We are being drawn to each other through fb in hoardes. How many friend requests do you get everyday, from fellow light workers? It doesn't even feel light a light 'worker' anymore, it feels like a new sub-species of humans, the light people- We Are of the Tribe of Light. We are the esmissary's of light,much like the native/indigenous people of earth, we are the the Tribe that has carried the soul/light of earth for all of time. We show up here now, on this planet, as the human-earth contract is up for negotiation. We are here to usher forth the new way.
Every day I get friend requests from all over the world from other members of the Tribe of Light. We are being drawn together for a reason, and I am determinded to figure it out. We need an icon next to our name to indicate that we are of the Tribe of Light.
Thanks for listening,
Love and More Light,
Laurie