Life Lesson's Fun Facts

My Dear Friends,

I pray that this note finds each of you buoyed in an ocean of love, passion and abundance. As this is my dream for me, so shall I hold it sacred in my heart for each of you as well.

I have learned so much about me and this 3-d world we live in since I started my sales job on January 12, 2011! I’ve learned that those who need me will find me, and the teachers I need will show up for me.

About 8 months ago I went to the beach and begged, pleaded, cried, screamed, demanded, commanded, and begged again, for God, Spirit and Jesus to lead me to my destiny, as this had been my prayer over the last 4 years. “SEND ME A TEACHER!(stomping my feet)….I WANT TO LEARN …..I WANT TO BE TAUGHT(jumping up and down)…..I AM TIRED OF LEADING(crying)……SEND ME A SPIRITUAL TEACHER(wailing, various facial fluids dripping off my chin)………JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO VERY CLEARLY AND I WILL DO IT GOD(beating my chest)…….…REMEMBER THAT I AM IN A FINITE HUMAN CONTAINER AND I NEED YOU TO BE VERY CLEAR WITH ME(hands in the air, wiping my nose with a crunchy old napkin I found in my sweater pocket)……IF YOU CAN’T GET YOUR GOD HEAD AROUND THE IDEA OF BEING LIMITED , BECAUSE YOU ARE WITHOUT LIMIT, THEN I SUGGEST YOU GO CHAT IT UP WITH YOUR SON, JESUS. HE ENCOUNTERED THIS VERY ISSUE DAILY DURING HIS TIME HERE ON EARTH, GO ASK HIM, HE‘LL GIVE YOU THE 411 ON BEING HUMAN(pointing fiercely at the sky in a scornful manner)….. BE THE LAMP UNTO MY FEET NOW…………….PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!! “, and on and on and on……

This Goddess turned a simple request into a full on bitch session and a temper tantrum……and THEY were listening……..

Apparently the Universe has a response time of about 5 months, kinda like my e-mail response time and it comes just as asked for. So when I started my new job in sales and found myself presented with oh so many opportunities to learn, adjust, ACCEPT and then let go, I did what most wise spiritual mystics do….I resisted. Ha! It seems that I learn the depth of the gift in the situation before me if I resist it vehemently to begin with. I would love to write here that I embrace all change and new situations with wisdom and tranquility from a very balanced space within me, unfortunately that would be a blatant lie (and I suck at lying, mostly because I can barely remember if I ate today, so remembering some lie I told always get’s me busted.). There is a great phrase that I quote often, whom the brainiac is that coined this phrase is I do not know, but to her/him I give the kudos.

“What you resist, persists.”

Yep,…..and it won’t leave no matter what means of denial you use to pretend it doesn’t exist. Bottle of wine? Shot of tequila? Bong hit? Chocolate? A loaf of hot French bread and some melted cheese? Working too much? Sleeping too much? Shopping? Complaining? Bitching about the not getting laid? Having too much sex? Screaming? Crying?……..nope, anything that takes your attention away from your integrity and the challenge at hand will not make it go away. The only antidote for the irritant right in front of you is to embrace it, and search it thoroughly with your heart.

Honestly, my first approach to something potentially painful and internally labor intensive is done with my scientific mind. I make a decision to be brave and turn around and acknowledge the cleverly disguised gift in front of me. I have had the gift of “learning patience” show up in the most adorable outfits, smelling of tremendous naivete (which incidentally carries the aroma of baby powder, go figure) ….and usually is very young and totally unaware. The gift of "humility" showed up in a nurses uniform, with a name tag that had clinical manager on it, a cigarette hanging out of it’s mouth and same zeal I have for the “F” word. Not sure if ya’all have noticed, but my gifts seem to come to me in the EXACT OPPOSITE FORM OF WHAT I AM TO LEARN ! Really cool right?

(eavesdropping on God’s conversation with my guardian Angel Ezriel about 2 years ago)

“hhmmmm…Looks like it’s time for Laurie to learn some inner peace, so how are we stocked for drama and chaos Ezriel? Got anything lined up? Perhaps she is ready for an “inner peace-release from stuff” combo? So go ahead and send some drama her way, and decrease her income so she can learn to let go of all that crap she has accumulated over the years trying to avoid these lessons. But send her sweetness, yes a grand-daughter will be good, and bless her relationships with her youngest daughter and her sister and her friend Kelly. We wanna help her learn and let go, not destroy her.”

Making a conscious decision to approach a potential emotional major

“ow-wie” is kinda like admitting you are 22 unmarried and 7 months pregnant to your parents whom you live with( been there tried to do that). There just ain’t no way around it. Approaching the little gift at hand with my analytical mind buys my heart a little time to prepare for the sword of truth that is about to come millimeters from my emotional jugular, it maintains some illusion of control, and comforts me. My mind introduces the “gift” to my heart with an amazing inspirational cheer. “You got this Laurie! You can do this! It is another wonderful gift coming to strengthen and support your journey! Embrace it! This will only Bless your journey! You are awesome!“

Rah-freakin -rah….woot wooot…yee-haa another lesson to learn. Yet, reliably, the closer I get to the core of the situation, the more I realize that the only control I really do have is how I chose to respond to it…..then the tears come……and I let go.

“shit just got real”…..in my face.

The next thing I do is send love to the situation and bless it, and wink at my heart, good Lord it is so strong! Letting go of the fear is different from resisting fear, which would fall back into the category of “Life Lesson Avoidance Techniques” addressed several paragraphs prior. I have often heard(and quoted) “Don’t be afraid”, “Trust”, “have Faith”…….sure, those truths are easily shared when the issue at hand has nothing to do with the loving advice giver. And honestly, my initial gut reaction to that advice when it lands in my face is “Screw you! Easy for you to say! I am the one who is going to have to do all the emotional and spiritual work here and this kind of pain BLOWS……” or something similarly self-pitying, yet eloquent.

This weekend I found myself at a sales and distribution conference in Charlotte, NC. I was panic stricken for the first hour and a half of the drive. I had become a distributor for an anti-aging line of products that I really knew nothing about. What I did know, was that I was being spiritually internally commanded to do so, something to do with “walking my destiny”.

I drove to Charlotte, found relaxation and solace in seeing my old friends the mountains again (yes I realize that the hills in Charlotte are not technically mountains, but Myrtle Beach is 10 feet below sea level and flatter than 5 day old road kill, so cut me some slack please). I was supposed to register for the conference on-line but as I currently am without “Internet Security” (food is more of a priority than renewing my Nortan Anti Virus plan), I chose not to post my bank card # on-line. I had notified my upline that I would be attending and contacted the kind woman in charge to reassure her that I would be attending. Due to the financial gift I am learning now ( to be open to receive and feeling worthy) I did not have a hotel room, so a lovely woman in my upline hooked me up with the guy who drives the company RV across the USA, who just happened to be the gentleman leading the conference. I was graciously invited to stay in the RV for free. Somehow, I got the impression I would be staying in the RV alone or with my friend who was interested in going, or maybe I assumed I would be staying in the RV alone.

I got to the conference 5 minutes before it was to start. I knew nobody there, and tried to find the leader Alan, without any success. I have always been that person who sits right in the front of the classroom under the teachers nose…no seats up front so I sat in the 4th row, behind groups of people hugging and laughing with each other. Alan came in and we got started. It was interesting. He referred to “intention” suggested that the distributors send “love and loving intention” to their clients/prospects, he addressed the fact that we all have thought paradigms that prohibit or EMPOWER us, and encouraged everyone to address their blocks to their success, he spoke about thinking outside of your normal paradgims, what traditionally has been called “the box”. He talked about human reaction to change and the perception of change as influenced by our fear or faith. People around me were intrigued and perplexed….how do we address our blockage? How do we figure out what our blockage is? Where does my blockage come from? What is outside the box? How do you set an intention? How can love EMPOWER? I could hear others muttering “Ignore your fear.“ “Think past your fear”, “Destroy your fear!” It was all I could do to remain sitting and quiet. I know how to explore every one of these issues with other humans, and how to help each eager person to do the archeological dig of self that will reveal the answers they need to BE THEIR DIVINE AND HOLIEST SELF

LlVING THEIR DIVINE AND HOLIEST DESTINY!

And it all starts with addressing your fear with no resistance in an absence of self-judgement.

Have you ever seen a frightened child? I was a frightened child, and had a father who would scream at me for being afraid, in fact, he would threaten my life because I was afraid. FUN FACT: fear can only be dissolved with love, threatening someone in fear only amplifies the fear.

I wanted to get up and address the audience. I KNOW ALL THIS STUFF! I KNOW HOW TO HELP, BECAUSE I DID IT ALL FOR MYSELF!!!! YIPPEEE ALL THAT HARD INTERNAL WORK, NOW I GET TO USE IT, SHARE IT, HELP OTHERS FIND PEACE AND JOY !!!!

And so I wrote a small note and tried to give it to the facilitator.He barely remembered the phone calls I had with him, or the fact that I was supposed to stay in the RV……he made suggestions of what we should address within ourselves and I wanted us to break into groups to work on identifying our blockages, and help each other see where we resist giving or receiving or being a team player or resist our magnificence, ……….but instead we worked on an affirmation.

Now maybe I am unique in this thought, but in order for an affirmation to work don’t you have to believe you are worthy of it’s request and vision?

If you want to build a team, then you have to address what the team needs to become strong. Confidence, Worthiness, Value, Love-ability, Sincerity-these personal knowings for each team member directly impacts the efficacy of the team. For if your team members do not have confidence, or self value or a inner knowingness of worth, how can they ever sell their dreams to another? And isn’t that what we are doing? We are sharing a personal story of our life with another being, telling them how this business can bless them, and how it can bless us……if the sales person/distributor is not convinced of his/her own worthiness is he or she ever going to ask for the credit card in a sale? NO!

A TEAM IS ONLY AS STRONG AS IT’S WEAKEST LINK…….AND IF YOUR TEAM DOESN’T FEEL WORTHY, AND HAS NO IDEA HOW TO DISSOLVE OLD THOUGHT PARADIGMS THAT KEEP THEM FEELING UNWORTHY, THEN THE TEAM WILL NOT FLOURISH OR PRODUCE……!!!!!! Trust me on this……my mothering skills were infused with old paradigms of unworthiness and it seriously created huge challenges within my children for them to accept their own inherent value.

I became frustrated, and as I had gotten no more than 5 hours of sleep any given night the week before I was way tired as well. So I dialogued internally….do I take the leader aside and give him all my suggestions? Do I share my suggestions with my group when we were supposed to be writing our stories and affirmations, usurping others time and their work productivity? Or do I behave, and not give Alan the note I had written, and not say anything, because playing small is safer, and I hadn’t pissed anyone off yet at the conference, except the guy whose water got knocked over by my curvaceous behind? So I decided that I would sleep on it all, and share with Alan on Sunday., and besides, I really wanted to get my affirmation done, and help others if they were open to it, and I couldn’t wait for the product description part of the program.

Unfortunately the product description part of the program started at 8:15 pm….the lovely millionaire couple got up in the front of the room and the enchanting woman shared what she carried in her purse, and then shared the products she uses on her face, her daily regimen….and as her husband jokingly commented on the PV she had no trouble meeting every month, I was doing the math in my head, trying to figure out how I could afford to only use the company products and keep on eating and paying my electricity bill. I wanted to know what was in these things…what kind of ingrediants? What was the research? Do these products that work with our bodies on the genetic level make us GMO? Is is safe? Is it good for our bodies? Are the ingredients all natural? What are our business core values? What is our mission statement? What do we as a business aspire towards? Do you know that krill oil is essential in treating in auto-immune diseases, including kidney disease? That Ginkgo cures Raynauds, and significantly decreases the symptoms of PVD? Have they used the spa device to administer medications or treat arthritic joints? Has reiki ever been used on the products before they are put on the skin?

OH MY GOD!!!!! I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY, ASK, SHARE!!!!

But I said very little. I was a tired and afraid to piss anyone off when I didn’t have the mental clarity to hold my ground with the challenging thoughts that were going through my brain. So again, I decided to sleep on it.

Finally at 10:50 pm we moved into the lobby and Alan lead us in a mediation. It was a sweet sincere meditation , which I am sure took many people out of their comfort zone. I felt comforted by the familiarity of the chakra meditation. At 11:45 the night was over,I was collecting myself when I heard several gentleman talking about spending the night in the RV. 20 years ago I would have gladly joined them and kept the party going out there, but I was tired, feeling vulnerable, didn’t have the $ for a hotel room and wondered what I was going to do. Then Alan gathered the team leaders together and started preparing them for the Sunday events. He instructed the leaders to be hard on us, to whip us into shape, because we all showed up to strengthen our East Coast Team, and we wanted to be whipped into shape.

FunFact: Whipping someone into shape by being really hard on them, while the person being molded has no self-confidence or sense of worth will only undermine your team creation. Teach each team memeber how to heal and love and trust themselves and then they will naturally step into the leadership role that is inherently and divinely theirs. If someone has no self-worth or weak confidence, then, and trust me on this, they are already whipping themselves more brutally than anyone else could ever do. And all the harshness with which they are being treated only CONFIRMS THE UNHEALTHY PARADIGMS THAT ARE CURRENTLY RULING IN THEIR HEADS!

I had to make a choice, to go sleep for 6-7 hours in an RV with several men who I don’t know, challenging my safety issues(been raped 6 times by acquaintances in the last 21 years) and would require more energy then I had at that moment, with a day of “being whipped into shape with harshness” to look forward to…….so I breathed in and out, prayed, and then I lied.

And I HATE lying. I always rat myself out.

I told my group leader that my daughter had called and needed me to come home. And I left.

I was too tired to stand up for what I believe in, and I really didn’t want to ruffle any feathers. So I took the easy way out. And when I got home at 4 am my daughter was glad to see me, and I fell asleep before my head hit the pillow.

I am proud of me. I am worthy of great and glorious things, and I have amazing insights to share and inspire. But for today, I will rest, and issue forth an apology to anyone who may feel let down by my inertia. I am exhausted and still none the wiser about the business I became a part of. I did learn two things that will alter my life forever :

1) Our spa device has more potential for use for healing than any other device I have ever seen, because it uses ENERGY AND LIGHT

( the very essence of God hisveryownself).

2) I must contact Margaret Ruby. I have been holding sacred vision for a spiritual teacher for a long time, and she is to be it.

Keep looking for the signs and pay attention to how your life speaks, and the story it tells of you,

Much love to all,

XOX

Laurie

401-206-2676 feel free to call!

Being Human: The Owners Manual

We are born infinite Spirits in a finite experience. Why?

What can this limiting experience teach our eternal selves?

Do we learn to become indifferent to how we feel, thereby dis-empowering our experience as our teacher?

OR

Do we embrace the fullness of our individual being and remember the gift we chose to give ourselves through this human form?

For when we are willing to feel, become and explore our humanity we then give ourselves permission to walk our Destiny.

Some wise amazing person once said

"Know yourself and you will know God."

I can attest to this fact. I know me, the feel of me, the heart of me, the mind of me, the Spirit of me, the complete experience of me and through this I came to know HIM. Not because I am the All of God, but because as a facet of Him I found His complete fractal image within the All of Me.

Being Human is a tricky path to navigate. Especially in this time when old dogma has been dissolved and there is a temptation to replace it with new dogma. It is like quitting smoking and replacing the old bad habit with a new bad habit. We became habitualized to rules.......so we find ourselves in a Spiritually liberating place where the only Rule is Loving Intent.....and we start making new codes, new laws, new regulations with which to "guide" our lives. We are extraordinarily good at taking something as simple as "Live with Loving Intent" and making it complex. I let go of the complexity of life, and surrender to the internal channel markers of my life.

I encourage each of you to do the same.

When you give yourself permission to make mistakes, you give yourself permission to finally LIVE.

I encourage EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU to answer these questions for yourself. DO IT! This is not a test....there are no right and wrong answers.....for you are birthing you here. Approach this activity as you would approach a woman in labor...with tenderness, compassion and courage. For if you take this chance, and answer these questions you will have given birth to the YOU that is needed and loved here and now. You will be born again.

1. What do I believe? About me? About God? About others?

2. Are there parts of me that I live my life in denial of? What aspect of me have I cut off from source, the very heart of me?

3. What do I feel?

4. What am I indifferent to? What do I risk in taking a stand?

5. What emotions do I allow myself to experience? What have those emotions taught me about me?

6. What does self kindness look like and feel like to me?

7. What would it feel like if I made a mistake?

8. What would it feel like if I made a great discovery?

9. What would I experience if my heart got broken?

10. What would I feel if my love for someone caused them to feel pain?

11. How does my indecision in my life serve me? What fearful thought system in my head is supported by my willingness to be indifferent and indecisive?

12. What does self happiness look like to me?

13. What does Love look like to me? Love from others? Love from self?

14. Do I trust myself with my own life?

15. Do I trust myself to feel my feelings?

16. What do I need in order to create a safe place within and around me so that I have the freedom to feel my emotions?

17. What parts of me are waiting for permission to Live?

18. What would it feel like if someone saw all of me and didn't like it?

19. What would it feel like if someone saw all of me and Loved it?

20. How do I show myself Love?

21. How do I let myself play?

22. What is it that I can do alone that makes me happy?

23. Do I forgive myself?

24. What do I need to create within me as a space of forgiveness and healing?

25. What determines whether something is worthy of forgiveness?

If it is hard to answer these questions for yourself, then change the word "I" out and replace it with the word "others".....so often it is easier to give advice than to self-analyze. Your advice is you advising yourself. The harshness with which we judge others is merely a reflection of the harshness with which we judge ourselves, and so should go our kindness.

Being human is a call from your higher self to get deeply connected with your very essence. This is the time and the place to trust yourself to take a stand, be willing to make a mistake, learn how to forgive yourself, let freaking go and LIVE.

And yes it is that easy.

Being YOU is that easy for you. You picked you for a reason, find out why.

Pick something that you love about you and celebrate it. Pick something that you don't like about you and love it. Treat yourself with the tenderness you would extend a new lover, and you will fall in love with you.

Please stop criticizing the nuances of you, and just observe you letting go. Watch yourself as you would watch a child or a puppy at play. There is no guilt, there is only innocence. Explore the boundaries of your courage. What are you willing to fight for?

What are you willing to risk everything for? What are you willing to Love with total abandon in spite of labels and ideas and judgements? Are you willing and ready to be a fool for YOU?

When you show up for yourself, you show up as an Angel in your own life.

The new thought system enables us to not make a sudden move 'cause we don't know all the rules of this new playground, someone might be watchin, and what if we screw up?

FYI: It's new to all of us.....and I guarantee that we are all going to make mistakes, and sometimes those mistakes will hurt, and sometimes those mistakes will guide, and sometimes those mistakes will be a miracle. But you will never experience the joy filled miracles until you are willing to look a fool to YOURSELF. Then realize that we are all a fool practicing being God for ourselves.......and let go into the playfulness around you. Being Human is about having fun, but you've got to be willing to risk a skinned knee or bruised emotional heart to really experience the All of Your Happiness.

Let me know if you get hurt. I will kiss your boo-boos.

It's going to be better than ok. It's going to be a close encounter with Your Loving Highest Self. And that aspect of you is drawing you back to your very own heart.

I love you.

Laurie

The Way of Compassion

I could not sleep tonight. I have been wrestling with a subject that has been very uncomfortable for me. I got up and came to the computer only to find that a friend had posted this:

"Please EVERYONE send healing energy !!! I am going to add this part - and as difficult as it is for those who are going to read this - just know everything IS in DIVINE ORDER :When catastrophes like this happen it is called : Spiritual depurification in mass... it needs to happen for the Earth to balance... I know - sad to read, but it is True... everything is in Divine order !!! ♥ These brothers & sisters of ours have agreed to leave the world in this manner... I know another difficult thing to read - but again it IS Karmic Law.... Prayers are needed !!! ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqhvZkSX_BI

Tsunami Alert! Over 133 dead and 400 missing in Indonesia"

This is at the very core of what I have been struggling to understand. In a world where humans work so hard to do the right thing, and grow, how can we issue forth such a seemingly cold shoulder to those who cry out in pain? As a member of the Tribe of Light, my absolute essence within my soul said "NO".

I responded to my friends wall post with this:

I understand what you are saying.

And I have been struggling with a concept someone shared with me a few days ago (and I am paraphrasing here):

S/ He said "The worst thing imaginable is a young girl, a child, being raped and

brutally murdered, here on the 3-d plane."

Yes, I agreed.

Then s/he said something that challenged me

"We all create a sacred contract as to how we will live our life and then die .....before we enter a body.

A soul that enters a body with the contract to have that body experience rape and brutal murder is blessed to have someone come and rape and murder them when seen through 4th dimensional awareness.

What a blessing then to be that rapist and murderer to help the "victim" soul fulfill it's contract."

(deep breath....exhale...continue)

In some very heady esoteric way I can almost wrap my head around this.

And it has really been bothering me......what is unhealed within me that is preventing me from rejoicing at the thought of a young child being raped and brutally murdered? Why do I not see that the person who committed those acts is a blessing to the child on the recipient end of this? What am I blocking within me to resist seeing the beauty and love within that situation?

After 3 days of agonizing self interrogation, I beleive I have some insight.

In the 4th dimension human agenda's have been purified by the loving fire of God's divine nature.

There are Universal Laws that expand and contract as we move into a higher dimension.

They expand by claiming Love as the Universal Truth, a given in that dimension, not like here in 3-d land where we have had to really work to remember and then sustain it. Universal Law contracts in the 4th dimension as there are no shadows.....only light.

When you are functioning within a Light directed and Light pervading dimension then there is no darkness or shadow. Here, souls show up with pure contracts to fill out, and we show up for each other as God to help them fulfill their contract. In the 4th dimension there is no need for killing or pain and death is obsolete. If you have karmic lessons or soul education that requires such dense experience as murder, rape, killing or torture, then you will manifest back into

3-d land for those lessons.

The light of the 4th dimension will burn away such density and darkness, so they cannot be experienced there.

We cannot apply the laws of the 4th dimension to the experiences on the 3rd dimension.

Rather, I will not apply the thoughts of accepting such things as "blessed" or "helpful" in this the 3rd dimension.

For the Laws on the 3-d plane include darkness, which has it's own job....to obscure truth from the light.

By saying that all suffering and pain in this the third dimension is deserved is cruel, and only serves to provide more darkened areas. We take the sacredness out of another's experience by saying that they were blessed to be raped, or blessed to have their child murdered. In 3-d land, that kind of thinking and a dollar will get you a free cup of coffee in prison. Those of us who work with the light here in 3-d land need to wield this kind of thinking with intense gentility. We have a responsibility to our selves and our brothers and sisters to be the Light when they are surrounded by shadow and seeming darkness. When we move into 4-d then this kind of thinking and the rules that apply can be shared without hesitation because we ALL will be vibrating at a higher frequency. Until then it only serves the darkness to sustain this kind of thinking in 3-d land. In 3-d land it is not a blessing to rape or be raped, it is not a sacred act to murder or be murdered, it is not some holy jihad for honor of God to experience devastation and tragedy from someone or something else's hand. We do not honor God or the Divine within ourselves or each other by tauting accolades towards those whose agenda is to express their rage in unloving ways.

Human Life is not about making yourself a sacrificial lamb for your own divinity....

it is about taking personal responsibility for your HUMAN actions and HUMAN thoughts......

Thought systems that claim blessedness within intentional cruelty negate any personal responsibility for those cruel thoughts and actions. Being human is about personal responsibility and the lessons within intense self-honesty.

If we encourage people to behave as they wish and blame their behavior on some unseen spiritual contract that they were obliged to fulfill, and thusly bring honor to God, then we strip humanity of it's ability to learn all spiritual lessons in 3-d land.....for 3-d lessons come in the form of choice and personal responsibility.

4-d laws do not apply here and if we try to apply them, there will be hell to pay for humanity. I will not participate in creating a collective hell, for I have visited my own, and got out as soon as I knew how.

Search your own hearts. For I KNOW this has become "traditional " new thought, but I believe that in our efforts to make sense of a pain laden 3-d world, we tried to make it ok by saying that all was pre-chosen by us for us. I am not sure this ability to eliminate personal responsibility stems from love...sounds more like ego mind to me.

I realize I may be exposing myself to the world for derision here, and I am relieved by doing so.

Clearly, I am still unhealed in many ways, and I am sure some will remind me that I am resisting healing.

And you may be right.

I know me. REALLY WELL.

My heart has been so purely driven to solve this puzzle that I feel comforted with what I have been taught here. I pray that you have been blessed as well, and ultimately, that this information will honor God as He is within everything.

If I must live one more human lifetime to correct any error in my thinking then so be it (I originally was going to say another 50 human lifetimes, then the messianic nature of me kicked in and I reduced the sentence to just one).

Much love to all of you,

Laurie

THE MIGHTY WARRIOR PRIESTESS GODDESS PROPHET VISIONARY POETESS TRIUMPHS AGAIN!

AND SO IT IS!

The Way of Compassion

I could not sleep tonight. I have been wrestling with a subject that has been very uncomfortable for me. I got up and came to the computer only to find that a friend had posted this:

"Please EVERYONE send healing energy !!! I am going to add this part - and as difficult as it is for those who are going to read this - just know everything IS in DIVINE ORDER :When catastrophes like this happen it is called : Spiritual depurification in mass... it needs to happen for the Earth to balance... I know - sad to read, but it is True... everything is in Divine order !!! ♥ These brothers & sisters of ours have agreed to leave the world in this manner... I know another difficult thing to read - but again it IS Karmic Law.... Prayers are needed !!! ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqhvZkSX_BI

Tsunami Alert! Over 133 dead and 400 missing in Indonesia"

This is at the very core of what I have been struggling to understand. In a world where humans work so hard to do the right thing, and grow, how can we issue forth such a seemingly cold shoulder to those who cry out in pain? As a member of the Tribe of Light, my absolute essence within my soul said "NO".

I responded to my friends wall post with this:

I understand what you are saying.

And I have been struggling with a concept someone shared with me a few days ago (and I am paraphrasing here):

S/ He said "The worst thing imaginable is a young girl, a child, being raped and

brutally murdered, here on the 3-d plane."

Yes, I agreed.

Then s/he said something that challenged me

"We all create a sacred contract as to how we will live our life and then die .....before we enter a body.

A soul that enters a body with the contract to have that body experience rape and brutal murder is blessed to have someone come and rape and murder them when seen through 4th dimensional awareness.

What a blessing then to be that rapist and murderer to help the "victim" soul fulfill it's contract."

(deep breath....exhale...continue)

In some very heady esoteric way I can almost wrap my head around this.

And it has really been bothering me......what is unhealed within me that is preventing me from rejoicing at the thought of a young child being raped and brutally murdered? Why do I not see that the person who committed those acts is a blessing to the child on the recipient end of this? What am I blocking within me to resist seeing the beauty and love within that situation?

After 3 days of agonizing self interrogation, I beleive I have some insight.

In the 4th dimension human agenda's have been purified by the loving fire of God's divine nature.

There are Universal Laws that expand and contract as we move into a higher dimension.

They expand by claiming Love as the Universal Truth, a given in that dimension, not like here in 3-d land where we have had to really work to remember and then sustain it. Universal Law contracts in the 4th dimension as there are no shadows.....only light.

When you are functioning within a Light directed and Light pervading dimension then there is no darkness or shadow. Here, souls show up with pure contracts to fill out, and we show up for each other as God to help them fulfill their contract. In the 4th dimension there is no need for killing or pain and death is obsolete. If you have karmic lessons or soul education that requires such dense experience as murder, rape, killing or torture, then you will manifest back into

3-d land for those lessons.

The light of the 4th dimension will burn away such density and darkness, so they cannot be experienced there.

We cannot apply the laws of the 4th dimension to the experiences on the 3rd dimension.

Rather, I will not apply the thoughts of accepting such things as "blessed" or "helpful" in this the 3rd dimension.

For the Laws on the 3-d plane include darkness, which has it's own job....to obscure truth from the light.

By saying that all suffering and pain in this the third dimension is deserved is cruel, and only serves to provide more darkened areas. We take the sacredness out of another's experience by saying that they were blessed to be raped, or blessed to have their child murdered. In 3-d land, that kind of thinking and a dollar will get you a free cup of coffee in prison. Those of us who work with the light here in 3-d land need to wield this kind of thinking with intense gentility. We have a responsibility to our selves and our brothers and sisters to be the Light when they are surrounded by shadow and seeming darkness. When we move into 4-d then this kind of thinking and the rules that apply can be shared without hesitation because we ALL will be vibrating at a higher frequency. Until then it only serves the darkness to sustain this kind of thinking in 3-d land. In 3-d land it is not a blessing to rape or be raped, it is not a sacred act to murder or be murdered, it is not some holy jihad for honor of God to experience devastation and tragedy from someone or something else's hand. We do not honor God or the Divine within ourselves or each other by tauting accolades towards those whose agenda is to express their rage in unloving ways.

Human Life is not about making yourself a sacrificial lamb for your own divinity....

it is about taking personal responsibility for your HUMAN actions and HUMAN thoughts......

Thought systems that claim blessedness within intentional cruelty negate any personal responsibility for those cruel thoughts and actions. Being human is about personal responsibility and the lessons within intense self-honesty.

If we encourage people to behave as they wish and blame their behavior on some unseen spiritual contract that they were obliged to fulfill, and thusly bring honor to God, then we strip humanity of it's ability to learn all spiritual lessons in 3-d land.....for 3-d lessons come in the form of choice and personal responsibility.

4-d laws do not apply here and if we try to apply them, there will be hell to pay for humanity. I will not participate in creating a collective hell, for I have visited my own, and got out as soon as I knew how.

Search your own hearts. For I KNOW this has become "traditional " new thought, but I believe that in our efforts to make sense of a pain laden 3-d world, we tried to make it ok by saying that all was pre-chosen by us for us. I am not sure this ability to eliminate personal responsibility stems from love...sounds more like ego mind to me.

I realize I may be exposing myself to the world for derision here, and I am relieved by doing so.

Clearly, I am still unhealed in many ways, and I am sure some will remind me that I am resisting healing.

And you may be right.

I know me. REALLY WELL.

My heart has been so purely driven to solve this puzzle that I feel comforted with what I have been taught here. I pray that you have been blessed as well, and ultimately, that this information will honor God as He is within everything.

If I must live one more human lifetime to correct any error in my thinking then so be it (I originally was going to say another 50 human lifetimes, then the messianic nature of me kicked in and I reduced the sentence to just one).

Much love to all of you,

Laurie

THE MIGHTY WARRIOR PRIESTESS GODDESS PROPHET VISIONARY POETESS TRIUMPHS AGAIN!

AND SO IT IS!