Karma and Grace

Grace and Karma

I was at church in a group and we all were sharing. Someone in the group took the personal information I had shared and tried to wield more pain into my woundedness. I explained how hurt I felt as a result of the comments. He laughed. I got up and left the group. I realize he was echoing the pain I was already feeling. If we are each experiencing our journey as lessons learned and gifts gleaned, then indeed must we ever apologize for hurting someone? This man has never apologized, and has relished in the thought of having contributed to my pain, which he even told me I was not experiencing. He had a spiritual epiphany last week, and woke up to his life. But he thinks that Grace supercedes all previous actions, and negates his karma and need for an apology. Is this true?

When I awoke in my life, I was tremendously humbled. I saw how I had created a thought paradigm at age 4, in order to survive, and how 41 years later I was still living it. I saw the immaturity of that thought system and how it undermined me as the light I am, and the vast amount of collateral damage it caused to those around me. I started making amends out of humility, and asking for forgiveness. The hardest person to get forgiveness from was myself, but it came.

Are we really to act any way we wish, and toss the consequences aside? Are we to be unkind even cruel to each other and to hell with the impact, because if we hurt or caused fear in someone else it is their issue to deal with, their lesson to learn, and we have actually done them a favor? This is so tough for me to wrap my head around. Isn't there an accountability we all have to each other, through the sacred contract of our words, and an accountability to our unity in Oneness through our deeds? I realize I cannot make someone apologize to me or anyone else. I also realize that we all walk a different path, but the closer we move into the light, don't we all see the same Truth? Isn't there one truth?And isn't that one truth laden with integrity,integratedness of being? What we do to the part impacts the whole, and we are responsible for the betterment of each other through the betterment of ourselves. Does grace absolve us from being responsible and kind in our actions with others?

If Indeed Grace negates our responsibility to each other, then is this the world we will create as the old one passes away? Creating a new earth system that works for everyone would require integrity and kindness to be a given. If only a few live by the code of integrity and kindness, then there will be little accountability, and then governments will arise again, since we humans as a majority can't seem to master kindergarten lessons 101.

The new earth I envision is a world beyond mental and physical borders. A world where our hearts and souls are safe to be honest and real. A world where malevolence is obsolete, and compassion is the holy currency we exchange. Where the One Truth, the One Unity In the One God resides and rules our individual expression, no governments are needed.....for we are led by the purest place of all....our heart.

The above questions are not rhetorical in nature. Responses would be greatly appreciated.

May seeds of truth bloom in your essence so that you can remain in Love's pure cascade,

Laurie

I am the mer-angel to encourage you as you choose between sinking or swimming. Not literal, see as an analogy. Sinking has it's advantages.  Letting go of any illusions of control and having faith that you will not succumb to the unknown beneath you, can free you. For you will not perish, but new life will be breathed into you. Try not to judge one option over the other, for they are your options and are only being  presented to you in symbolic fashion. Swimming can be energy depleting, yet gives one the illusion of accomplishment, in it's constant repetitive motion. Perhaps flowing with the current of your life, and losing your need to navigate so fiercely would be an option as well. Like Floating on the still water interrupted periodically by it's swells. I am merely to be your cheerleader and can help as your safety net when you need respite. 

This is our journey. We are both student and teacher, cheerleader and quarterback, nights reprieval of day. There is a reciprocity that has started, and will gently unfold.

 

That was the message I received last night.

 

Todays message:

INNER PEACE

Trusting God/the Universe always in ALL Ways. Speak these words to your entire self:

I have peace of mind and heart.

I am infused with exuberance.

Affirm these truths on all levels of your U-ness.

 

Romans 12:11-Do not lack in zeal.

Sizzle with enthusiasm.

 

There is a silence into which the world cannot intrude.

There is an ancient place you carry in your heart, and you have not lost it.

Seek it's comfort and acceptance.

Open to it's voice, and hear your Truth speak to you.

There is a Holy place within you that sin or fear has never touched.

Solace from time's commands, losing yourself into your childlike wonder.

All of this, in this moment today, you now remember.

 

You Are The Light Of The World

 

Frequency of light varies. Used by His divine nature to attract those lost in their darkness, unto Him, the eternal source of Light.

Attraction to the light is strong in those who feel it's absence, and are awake enough to notice something lacking in their physical experience of "now". Some may need just a spark of light. Others will require a burning bush. Each of you has the Light Source within, emnating as Divinely ordained.

 

There is no judgement in the varying of light frequencies. For darkness cannot overcome the light, on all planes. In a darkened room, there is poor if any perspective. Light a match in that darkness, and the darkness is driven away. Nothing can be hidden , and perspective can be adjusted. Stand in a lighted hall and open a door to a darkened room, the darkness cannot come streaming out and overcome the light. The Light will always Illumine that which surrounds and beholds it.

For those who are attracted but new to the light, a small spark will draw them closer. Some of you are to hold that spark and honor it, for you are the Light Greeters. Those who carry the burning bush of light are used to attract all Light Workers and those in search of an expeditious  form of enlightenment.

Do not push energy. Do not pull energy. This is the state of ALLOW. 

Allow your light to shine, no matter it's frequency. No attempts to minimize or accelerate. Being in the sacred presence of your Light, non-judgementally, gives  Spirit permission to control the fire and light energy within you.

You are a Cultural Creative being open to spirit moving in, through and around. Inherently the artist of your life.

Cultural Creatives have a bigger awareness - that our life holds necessary significance. Our life holds purpose, and this awareness cannot be destroyed. Although many have chosen to work very hard to ignore it's yearnings.

We are the Light of the World, Christ's love manifesting through us. The Spirit of the Eternal God shines through us, even when all seems dark. We are allowed to feel the darkness so we can know our ability to transform it. We can change the shape and purpose of our darkness through our intentionality. As Light Carriers we have a knowing-of being part of the healing, loving and rebirthing of this world. We grow up to our purpose in the now. Blooming into our full magnificence.

 

In the Beginning, Divine Mind became Itself. Jehovah- meaning the Eternal Living. This represents the masculline side of our duality. It is the offering.

Then the Holy Spirit was brought into manifestation as a silent stillness. This manifests as the feminine, receptive presence.

Creation continually pours into and through us. Through Spirit we continually give ourselves over to remebering and manifesting both offering and receiving.

How we speak, write, behave and believe exposes the intentinality of our living.

As hard as we may try, we cannot take a vacation from our Spirit. For we have always been, and will always be. Allow your life.

Do not look for problems to solve. Experience the now,with it's  gullies and mountains, as a process to be experienced. Allow the river of your life to flow effortlessly through you.

 

Affirmation: Divine Spirit moves around me and through me expressing I am the Light of the World.

 

New ideas can only come through in a field  of receptivity. Affirm: We are a receptive presence for Divine and Holy energy to manifest through.

We are the ones we've been waiting for. To be present at this time, as a sacred witness for Heaven's manifestaion on Earth.

On earth as it is in Heaven. H.O.P.E.-Heaven On Planet Earth. 

Above information is for you, and many others, but as far as the intention it was given with, it was meant initially for you-all those who seek it.

If it makes sense good. Perhaps just a planted seed.  I just do what He asks, and try not to get into His way. 

It feels to me like God is offering you something firm and sound to stand on as you create the next phase of your life. And, that we were drawn together to support and assist each other, for I am just laying the foundation of my creation of me.

XOX

Laurie 

 

 

Seeing God

We had walked the walk.

We had felt the feelings.

We had withstood the battles and held our sacred ground.

We had been beaten, we had won, we had retreated, we

had forged ahead....

We let go

We accepted

We held tight to the truth of who we were,

 The Tribe Of Light on Planet Earth.

We breathed,

We tasted,

We loved

We hated

We dreamt

We sacrificed self for less than divine causes

We knew torture

We tormented

We slept through our beauty

We awakened in the the middle of the hell we created while

 we were numb to our power

We sang

We danced

We cried and cowered

We learned

We grew

And then we knew...

Our ability to create our life lies in the magic of every

 moment, fueled by our brutal self honesty.

En masse we ascended Heavens staircase to see His face.

 To sit at His feet and feel His life creating divinity.

Together we stood at the door to His Chamber

.

The lights went out and we were gently ushered into the

 room. We could feel Him. We could sense that we were i

n the Presence of someone so powerful and loving that 

wounds could be healed with His fragrance and Universe's

 could be altered by His whisper.

Then the Light streamed forth from over head nearly 

blinding us.

"Welcome Home!" we heard,

"Open your eyes and behold the 

Ever Living God!"

And then we saw it.....a mirror 

within a mirror within a

mirror........we held our hands 

up to touch the mirror, but

glass, we did not touch. Our 

hand was met by our own

hand, an eternal image of us

 reaching out to join past

present and future versions of

 who we truly are...

For we are God.

You are wise, beautiful and wondrously made.

Love and Light, Laurie

Hello Again....

Wow....I can't believe how much I really need the bigger font.....soon to be 49 and oh the changes in my body.......strange..I never really thought my life would go past 15...so almost 50 is kind of an odd concept.......how did I get here? , and then how do I get to where I want to go?

(reality now kicking in...)

Oh, goody, now I get to figure out where do I want to be? Who do I want to be? What is mine alone to do?? How can I be of service to The All through each and every one of my brothers and sisters? What are my talents, and how do I channel them to honor You Father God in the highest and holiest way? How can I contribute to my own happiness and SUSTAIN it with the delicate balance of courage and innocence?
I have fixed lawn mowers,dishwashers, garbage disposals, washers, dryers, car windows, replaced toilets, changed the brakes on my car, emotionally supported and financially taken care of a family for 25+ years, mostly alone, but with the utmost beloved company as God my father and husband of my heart. Of these things I am certain. He is in constant company with me, I just wish He would show up for me in male human form.....just a true friend....no booty call necessary.

Secretly, in a place where only one other being dwells with me, I am fulfilled spiritually, yet there is this enormous, huge, giant, humungous physical, mental, emotional and energetic space that I am having some trouble filling alone. The fun part is that I get to figure out how to fix this on my own. I have felt so elevated and loved in Spirit, that no ordinary man would ever do for me. I must have extraordinary. Am I spoiling myself? Yep,...but it is time for me to shine as me!!!! And as much fun as I am having, I have it alone, asleep or in my writing. And an obvious deduction, to anyone who may even remotely know me, would know that the more I sleep the more labile my sense of self. As if just by tuning out the world and tuning into me keeps pulling me forward onto this path, my "sleep escape" is a habit that I am ready to lose. I want so desperately to feel fulfilled that I physically ache for it. I have run from this longing for many years, which comically, has only perpetuated the hunger for said fulfillment. God help me find the paid occupational path I am to walk, sprint and run, for I feel so out of place in the "working world".

My destiny stands in my periphery, always summoning me with a beckoning finger....and it runs my dream space.....there is work for me to do for the Magdalene......the expected one.....I want to grow in my love and devotion for you Father God do I need to go to France and study with the Magdalene Order to succeed?......I surrender all I am....every last bit of it it I give to You...just tell me what to do in an ordered and clear way, so that I may excell in every phase of my life. Am I to study the Magdalenes handwritten message?........I really want touch it.....for she is our mother, and I want to know her more intimately. Am I to teach? Am I to write? Am I to speak? I am listening...please help me hear You.
So I keep following the signs, and trusting that everything that shows up on my path is a teacher, and trusting that unless I am clearly instructed otherwise, I am going in the right direction. Help me feel fulfilled, cuz out in the physical "work world" I feel so out of place. I am absolutely at my happiest and most peaceful when I am writing, so Lord God, I count on You to send me an enthusiastic and successful publisher who will share the fruits of the love affair your Spirit has with my fingertips and the QWERTY keyboard.

It is Now April 2012 and I now realize that I need go nowhere to do the work that is mine to do. I have the winning lottery ticket to me.....all I need is to look within, and honor the Magdalene there. Thank God.

Am I slow, as in short-bus slow, or does it take most of us a while to really glean the messages that God puts in our lives? Oh well, alas, I am me....I learn at my pace and as the Indigo Girls so eloquently put it "learning to face your path at your pace makes every choice worth your while."
Amen.
Love and Light, Laurie